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~LyRiCaL sTaR~
Name:SnOw
Age:23
email:obsessedwithblue@hotmail.com (for msn and friendster)
Birthday:07 Nov 1983
Horoscope:Scorpio
Lurves
Darling Ryan
People who care esp my besties, gd pals, bro
being different
dreaming
Hates
Deceit
Broken promises
Hopes for
Happiness
I'll be with my darling for a lifetime
Darling will enjoy happiness, success and good health
bro and elisa get back together
happiness and good health for my family and friends
being able to smile on my birthday this year
More tangible stuff
A 2B bike license
A better digital camera *greedy peeg >.<
Sony Ericsson k800i mobile phone
Good grades for school
Pass my Advanced I ballet exam next year (with flying colors not just a pass, gee i wished for a pass in my inter exam n i got just dat. Grr)
Reach my goal of 45kg (Y does it seem so far away? Haiz.. Lack of self-ctrl.. I'll sell my soul just to be thin)
Thursday, December 15, 2005
8:24 PM
~NumB~
lately been tinking a lot. abt life, family, love, friends.mayb that explains d increasing no. of white hairs on my head.
Life*
stil haven't found d true meaning of it. R we born 2 die? living life s a monotonous routine. d typical sg life: baby. grow up. study. wk. get a gf/bf. get married. ve kids. get sick. den die. Mayb i'll never grasp d meaning of it even til d day i breathe my last breath.
Family*
It took me a while 2 realise i love my family. no matter wat happens the blood ties link us 2gether. I guess they r d only ppl who'll love me unconditionally. No matter wat i do or change, they'll always b there 4 me. I'm sorry 4 disappointing them esp s i grow up, i get more rebellious. I sumtimes 1der how i'll cope wif d grief when any1 in my family passes away, den i'll regret all d tings i shld ve or shldn't ve done.
Love*
Wat is love? 2 ppl getting together 2 avoid d stone cold loneliness which comes fr being single? My dream ideal of love: even in death we won't love another. so difficult 2 attain. These days love is so shallow. All of us will keep trying 2 find sum1 else everytime a relationship ends. I'm sick of that routine. Mayb i'm not fated to love any1 or meet d 1 who'll love me. I haven't met dat sum1 who has given me dat feeling dat we'll last. I don't 1 2 get 2gether wif sum1 n then break up. I'm not ready 2 try or get hurt again. It's 2 tiring. It takes 2 2 make love work but it seems it's v difficult these days.
Frens*
They r always there 4 me. But m i there 4 them when they need me? I don't think I'm a gd fren. It's like sumtimes u no ppl care 4 u but u consciously push them away.
Mayb it's just d depressive soul speaking. Don't understand myself sumtimes. I no i can b happy but i choose 2 b unhappy. Mayb i just need Prozac.
I hate thinking. But i can't help it. guess it's d way i m. I'll try 2 b optimistic even thgh i no i'm a pessimistic girl beneath.
imlost...
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