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~LyRiCaL sTaR~
Name:SnOw
Age:23
email:obsessedwithblue@hotmail.com (for msn and friendster)
Birthday:07 Nov 1983
Horoscope:Scorpio
Lurves
Darling Ryan
People who care esp my besties, gd pals, bro
being different
dreaming
Hates
Deceit
Broken promises
Hopes for
Happiness
I'll be with my darling for a lifetime
Darling will enjoy happiness, success and good health
bro and elisa get back together
happiness and good health for my family and friends
being able to smile on my birthday this year
More tangible stuff
A 2B bike license
A better digital camera *greedy peeg >.<
Sony Ericsson k800i mobile phone
Good grades for school
Pass my Advanced I ballet exam next year (with flying colors not just a pass, gee i wished for a pass in my inter exam n i got just dat. Grr)
Reach my goal of 45kg (Y does it seem so far away? Haiz.. Lack of self-ctrl.. I'll sell my soul just to be thin)
Friday, March 10, 2006
10:47 AM
~2 god, if there really is 1 in d 1st place..~
M i a bad person? i mus b.. Ve i sinned so much in my past life dat u 1 2 punish me 4 my sins? I don't no how much longer i can take... If u meant 2 play a joke on me, u r winning. dis is a game i can't play anymore.. y do u let me experience a transient fleeting happiness only 2 take it away each time? Is it 2 mock or 2 torment me? I no there r many tings in life which can't b forced.. Like if d person u love is not happy wif u u've 2 let go.. Isn't it ironic when d same person is d only 1 who can make u happy..
i admit i'm weak.. i've little will 2 live.. I really don't 1 2 do d tings i do but everyting is getting unbearable.. how much longer can i face d world alone? i can't c d light.. there's no destination i can go 2. i can keep on trying but i'll fail in d n.. will i c grandma? Will she scold me 4 my foolishness? U can continue forcing me 2 d brink of exhaustion n i can't fight on.. wat can b worse than dis when u've tore my soul apart n d reason 2 carry on no longer exists.. D uncertainty beyond dis life no longer scares me.. . i fear only d present.. U r using d v means u no i can't withstand.. d cruelty of it all.. only d person whom u love d most can inflict d worst hurt on u yet he's not ur enemy..
i can't blame u or any1.. i'm juz a pawn in dis game. meant 2 b a fool.. meant 2 b hurt repeatedly n d cycle continues.. mayb d world will b a better place wifout me.. wifout me 2 add on trouble 2 ppl's lives or make ppl unhappy..
imlost...
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