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~LyRiCaL sTaR~
Name:SnOw
Age:23
email:obsessedwithblue@hotmail.com (for msn and friendster)
Birthday:07 Nov 1983
Horoscope:Scorpio
Lurves
Darling Ryan
People who care esp my besties, gd pals, bro
being different
dreaming
Hates
Deceit
Broken promises
Hopes for
Happiness
I'll be with my darling for a lifetime
Darling will enjoy happiness, success and good health
bro and elisa get back together
happiness and good health for my family and friends
being able to smile on my birthday this year
More tangible stuff
A 2B bike license
A better digital camera *greedy peeg >.<
Sony Ericsson k800i mobile phone
Good grades for school
Pass my Advanced I ballet exam next year (with flying colors not just a pass, gee i wished for a pass in my inter exam n i got just dat. Grr)
Reach my goal of 45kg (Y does it seem so far away? Haiz.. Lack of self-ctrl.. I'll sell my soul just to be thin)
Saturday, April 15, 2006
1:10 AM
~Sorry seems to be the hardest word~
What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there
What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word
What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word
I learnt something today. That feelings are nothing but fleeting transient emotions which are meaningless. Feelings never last no matter how intense they may be. They are just something to remind you of your very existence on earth.
Please don't blame yourself anymore. All I've brought is agony and pain to you. I'm sorry for what I've done in the past. You are always perfect in my eyes and everything that has happened is of all my doing. I just know that no matter what I do or how hard I try things will go wrong anyway. I won't do anything foolish. All I know is that the person you'll see in the future will not be who you see in the present any longer. Someone who'll no longer let others worry for her. A person who will be stronger and face reality in the eye rather than living in her own deluded fantasy world. She'll stop believing and indulging in fairy tales which have no value or purpose in her life. She'll disregard things in her life which won't work out or have a good ending.
I recall some Chinese lyrics which if loosely translated it means why is it when we are together you crave for freedom? Is my love for you too overbearing that you wanna break free and be alone?
If I had the time
I’ll spend it with you
Time gets you old and weary
Like a lifeless ordinary
Some burn out while some fade away
I don’t want you to go
I want you to stay
If I could turn back the time
I’d spend it with you
I want you to know
Even though you’re gone
That I’m drowning in tears
I wish you were here
And hear me say
Believe me, I’m sorry
Feels like everything’s undone
Peace of mind still I haven’t found
And time will heal those broken mends
I know it will come, but when will it end
Don't tell me that it's not worth it to do the things I do. If i have a chance to choose whether to love you all over again, I'll still love you even if it's painful and hard to bear.
I won't let anyone else into my heart anymore. I know I shouldn't keep living in the memories of the past when the present and the future is the one that truly matters. The memories are what drives me to stay alive. But if I'm happier living a lie... let it be...
imlost...
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