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~LyRiCaL sTaR~
Name:SnOw
Age:23
email:obsessedwithblue@hotmail.com (for msn and friendster)
Birthday:07 Nov 1983
Horoscope:Scorpio
Lurves
Darling Ryan
People who care esp my besties, gd pals, bro
being different
dreaming
Hates
Deceit
Broken promises
Hopes for
Happiness
I'll be with my darling for a lifetime
Darling will enjoy happiness, success and good health
bro and elisa get back together
happiness and good health for my family and friends
being able to smile on my birthday this year
More tangible stuff
A 2B bike license
A better digital camera *greedy peeg >.<
Sony Ericsson k800i mobile phone
Good grades for school
Pass my Advanced I ballet exam next year (with flying colors not just a pass, gee i wished for a pass in my inter exam n i got just dat. Grr)
Reach my goal of 45kg (Y does it seem so far away? Haiz.. Lack of self-ctrl.. I'll sell my soul just to be thin)
Thursday, December 29, 2005
12:15 AM
~Falling in love..~
These few days i've been at a loss of words.. not coz i'm depressed but coz i'm too happy. It all started on a crazy x'mas day.. I was amazed at my dear dear's courage 2 confess his feelings 2wds me or else we wld never b 2gether in dis lifetime most probably. But d actual day we got 2gether is boxing day which coincided wif addy's ROM day..(secretly, i hope i can ve d same rom day if we ever make a firm committment)
I think i understand wat's love supposed 2 b like.. Love is not meant 2 b selfish, mean or unkind. It embodies all d positive elements such s being considerate, caring n being there 4 d other party. I no if i treasure my dear dear we'll b able 2 walk d long path of life ahead of us 2gether. It's not ez 2 find sum1 who'll accept u 4 ur flaws n ve similar attitudes n beliefs s u do.
All of a sudden, d sun seems 2 shine even when it's raining, there's a spring in every step u take n u just can't stop wearing dat silly smile on ur face. I guess if i've 2 give up d rest of d forest 4 dis tree, i'd not mind. U can't b greedy. Besides wat looks gd on d outside usu hides an ugly interior within. I've always thgt god was fair in a way. U can't ve everyting u 1 in life. there'll b compensating factors in certain flaws we've. Even d person who seems 2 ve gd looks, money, success may not b s perfect s he/she seems.
2day was d last day of environmental psych tutorials. I realised dat i dun dislike tze min anymore. she was quite sweet 2 buy so much snacks 4 us 2 eat while we all did d summaries 4 d sub. Mayb i'm getting more mature in a way. N not imposing my crazy perfectionist character standards on ppl anymore.
I'm sumhow v lucky 2 ve frens who r there 4 me thgh i haven't been d best fren ard.. I can b rather irresponsible n nonchalant at times but it doesn't mean dat i've 4gotten wat they've done 4 me. Just that dis crazy gal has mood swings n when she's upset she might not feel like talking n she chooses 2 isolate herself fr d rest of d world. It's a matter of our own attitudes n beliefs of dis world. If u believe d world is bleak u can b v rich yet feel extremely poor spiritually. I always thgt i dun deserve 2 b happy but actually it's of my own thinking n dis was d cause of my unhappiness. If i adopt a more ez going approach 2 life, life isn't dat hard 2 lead. Dat day i was reading Sunday Life abt cancer patients n they go thru pain everyday. Wat r my problems compared 2 theirs? I can't imagine d pain they've 2 experience daily n i HATE pain. If their will 2 live is so firm n strong hw can I give up d moment i suffer a setback? Nowadays I'm more sensitive 2wds sad movies n media reports n i can't help weeping.. Emotional? Not surprising. But if I can't empathise wif other ppl, I'm s gd s dead. It's uncomfortable 2 experience certain emotions but i guess growing up involves vulnerability.
2005 is ending soon n i've dis feeling dat life will take a new turn in d 2006 fr d negativity last yr n dis yr. I can't wait 2 take my class 2B license n graduate so i can apply 2 b a police officer. I really hope i get accepted coz i believe dis will aid in my growth n maturity. D new yr holds so many new prospects, hopes n wishes. I've never been more optimistic than ever in my life.. Has love got sumting 2 do wif it? Absolutely. ")
2 Comments:
Gary Freedman said...
Glad to hear you've found contentment. As for me, I'm just a lonely, tired, frustrated old man.
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